Hello. Thanks for clicking onto my personal blog. I am sharing this unlisted post in confidence and trust with people I care about and who support me. I want to start by saying that I am incredibly blessed in my life right now, and thankful for being alive, and the people I have built relationship with in my life. I am fed. I am safe. There is a roof over my head. My car is fixed. And some big changes are happening in my life. That said, I have between a 700 to a thousand dollar gap in my finances going into the new month. I will not as of right now be able to pay my rent in full. In the circumstances of my life, it is not a good idea for me to be on my landlords radar for eviction proceedings. This past month I sustained an excruciating back injury and missed a week of work. I wasn't able to see a doctor or chiro about it. It responded well to rest, and rest I did. I'm now walking around regularly with no cane and no pain! Also my housemate of the past year is moving out in the beginning of April. We had planned for months having a third tenant move in to offset some of the financial uncertainty. She had an episode, punched a hole in the bathroom door, and scared this person off till she moves out. That situation is de-escalated. The house is calm. But it's been challenging because I spent six years making this space feel like a home and it's often I don't get to have my own needs, feelings, and experiences in my own space. I'm not blaming or faulting anyone. It's just a thing that happened. A little over a year ago, after Hurricane Helene hit us, I was blessed with very minimal damage. No flooding. No fallen trees or landslides. But the two people I lived with left. They did so in a respectful and financially responsible way. But I had a crisis moving into the future where I didn't feel comfortable going on Craigslist or soliciting online boards for a normal roommate relationship. I made a choice that I